I’m getting fat
I think it may be time to give a short account of my recent misbehaviour. I took a 5-week working vacation break from my job on July 1st. I‘m now more than three weeks into it and things are :evil: … well, judge for yourself.
Why is it like that that when you change the environment, the whole system can fall apart so easily? I have completely lost control over my meals… now they come when they come. I have to eat at my parents’ a lot and even when I’m at my place, my BF enjoys eating sweets, bless him. I don’t have the heart to say no, he is lean and fit and when he’s hungry, he looks at me with a look of a stray dog that hasn’t eaten in a week. I need much more discipline with my food now that I have to keep sweets in the apartment for him. Sometimes, I don’t have enough of it and I go for those cookies or wafers myself.
And my parents, oh my, for them, food is love. They’re too old to change, every time I protest, my mother worriedly asks me if something is wrong and why I feel nervous. If I persist in explaining her that the way she wants me to eat makes me gain weight, she feels hurt. Maybe I’m not patient enough with her or have a bad choice of words, I don’t know. It’s possible. Whatever the reason, I don’t want to stress them out, so I give up and take the food and thank them.
Today, for example, I stopped by my parents’ place for 5 minutes to say hi while I was walking my dog in the morning. The result was that I left their place with a sizeable chunk of homemade apple strudel.
I miss Buddy slim and all of you. I wish I didn’t loose track of what is happening to you. I wish I could at least keep up with the blogs but I can’t. I would need broadband instead of my slow modem for that.
Well, to cut this lament short, I will try to impose more discipline into my life while at the same time trying to work around everyone else’s agenda. I need to, my eating is completely out of whack. I’ll start using a paper journal again. I’ll stand firm on when I eat my meals. I’ll have to throw an occasional homemade strudel into the garbage.
Hey, on the good side, you know what? I may have gained quite a few pounds back (all of them, I was 152 thin morning again), but given the hectic diet plan, it’s no surprise. If I wanted to sustain my normal eating plan here, I would ned double the energy and would need to have a very hard talk with my parents or stop going to visit them. I just wasn’t in the Gestapo mode food wise also because I didn’t want to add more stress into my life at this time, because I quit smoking on July 1st. It’s day 25 of being tobacco free. It’s hard. It’s not really affecting my appetite, but it is affecting my mood and my digestion in a big way. I have to avoid drinking coffee now, because it’s hard to have it with without a smoke, and my blood pressure is so low I just feel lethargic all the time and often have to fight headaches. The lack of coffee has slowed down my metabolism as well, so i feel bloated and puffed up all the time. Aarrhg, you know how it goes. You change one thing and everything starts falling apart. Dash it.
I’m such a week person. I really need to build up my strength to say no to food and not to seek comfort in it. I’m also really grateful for the fact that there are no cigarettes in the house, because that’s the only thing that keeps me straight sometimes.
Keep on keeping on, buddies. Hugs and kisses to all, I’m thinking of you and I’ll be back full force after August 10th.
I’m thinking of you. Be better than me, buddies.
Congrats on giving up the tobacco and remember when one stops smoking usually eating replaces it! just try and not eat too much junk. Food is okay and won’t stick to you as much lol Anyway it’s to be expected after giving up those awful cigarettes but hey look at like this….you quit smoking!!! YES that’s an awesome thing! And I know you’ll get back into the swing of things soon with the eating. Dont worry and don’t beat yourself up; you should be proud of what you have accomplished!!! Take Care!
Lidecka: I didn’t realize that was you until after I posted my comment! WOW I;ve really missed you and now I know why! Girl not to worry about a thing; you’ll get back into the swing of things real soon1 Enjoy yourself sweetie and enjoy your family!!!
You quit smoking! Good for you! That’s really going to change your life! Don’t worry about gaining back the weight. Try to get things under control again. You can eat everything your parents give you but just have really small quantities. Probably would be good to keep a journal too and couldn’t your BF go out to satisfy his sweet tooth? Hang in there Lidecka. I miss you!
smoking will also make you crave, crave, crave! Good for you to quit. Just do baby steps. I know when I stopped work for the summer I gained because the routine was gone. If your parents give you food try to eat only half or if you take food home with you throw it away, right away. Or better yet hide it for your BF. I know my hubby also adores sweets and doesn’t need to worry about weight it is a big struggle but many people recommended getting low fat replacements. If he wants ice cream you get a fudgcycle, if he wants cookies you get a 100 calorie snack pack or yogurt. Now when my husband runs to the store I ask him to pick up a yogurt or something 100 calorie for me. Sure it is a pain on the budget but it is worth it on the hips
Great job on ditching the cigs.
You know if your Mom loves to cook for you, why not find some acceptable recipies and ask her to make them for you.
For the record, you are not weak.
Girl, don’t call yourself weak! You quit smoking and that takes a STRONG person to do that! I am proud of you! I know that you can do this! Change almost always will affect the way you eat. You just need to figure out how to “re-adjust” and then you will get back to your old fighting self. You can do this Lidecka. Just remember that you are worth the effort.
Great job on stop smoking. That takes so much will power to do so we know you have it. You will get your eating back the way you want it just remember it takes time.
Well done for quitting the cigs, I am looking forward to seeing you back on her on Aug 10th!
Once you get back in the swing of normal life again you will lose those pounds I am sure of it!
Hope you feel better soon though, it’s not nice when changing something in your life has such a major knock on effect on the rest of your body!
MISS YOU xxx
I was wondering where you were!!! Okay, there are so many things going on here and all of them I can relate to. Lidecka, I just recently learned how to deal with rechanneling the anxiety and stress I used to address when I smoked. From smoking, I went to eating and it’s been hard to find that balance. Even though you think it may not have affected your hunger, trust me, the quitting has affected you and I’m sure more than one bite of that apple struddle may be due to the anxiety. I can’t wait for you to come back full force!!! GREAT JOB ON QUITTING. As an ex-smoker, I know it’s the hardest thing you’ll do!!!
You can do it, this is just a speed bump in the road. Look how much you’ve already done and learned about yourself. Quiting smoking is proof that you are not weak. Enjoy the rest of your visit with your family and boyfriend. Looking forward to having you back on-line.
Hang in there and don’t beat yourself up.
Remember that even small changes in a positive direction will get you back on track in no time!
I did not know you smoked. Well that fact that you are clear of this is fantastic. Great job Master Lidecka.
As for not wanting to make people feel bad, I understand COMPLETELY. But it goes both ways I think. They do not want to hurt us either. At a WW meeting we were discussing what to do at Christmas time because as we all know, Mom’s love to make treats for us. Well, one lady said why not ask your Mom to make you something healthier that you love. Just an idea.
I do not know what to say about being surrounded by food all the time. It can happen. So tough. My hugs go out to you. Be strong and know that if you are moving more it will be okay and when you come back we will help each other. I do so hope your health improves. I am worried about ya. Cheers dear friend. Missing you. *flowers for strength and improved health*
Huge MONSTEROUS congratulations on quitting smoking!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO FLIPPEN COOL I say!
I am totally (valley girl voice)looking forward to your return on the 10th. I’ve missed ya buddy.
Just coming from a vacation visiting in-laws, I can certainly relate to the food issue. Just how do you turn down food that was prepared especially for your arrival without hurting the feelings of the person that prepared it all with love in their heart and worked so hard to prepare it? They did notice that I had lost weight, which left me open to tell them the kind of eating plan I was on, so it wasn’t too too hard to bypass those potatoes and then crooooon over the fresh fruit plate and load up on that. But when it came to the sweets, I had to just dig my heels in and tell them that even though it looked absolutely scrumptious, I can’t eat just a “small” serving, I would have to have it all, and it would undo everything I’ve worked so hard for. They understood, but unlike you, they also had a huge amount of other family to feed it to. When it came to the 5 different homemade ice creams, I did try the rasberry sorbet instead of the other creams, which I felt was a little better nutritionally. The other foods prepared I just had to take small portions and back away “before” I felt full. It’s hard when it comes to family, but it’s also something that has to be dealt with. When you explain how excited you are and how MUCH you WANT this goal, they will understand. If they don’t then it’s something they will have to deal with. That’s my take anyway. Hope that helps you. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with smiling and saying “fix me up a package to go”, then dropping it in the trash out of their eyesight. Saves THEIR feelings and YOUR diet.
The sweets in the house with your boyfriend. I can certainly empathize there with you also. Lid, it comes down to how badly you want this weight loss. Be prepared. I HAVE to have some kind of sweets for me when I have a house of three men that shovel cookies, ice cream, cakes, etc. in their mouths nightly. They just don’t understand, and just because I’m on a diet doesn’t mean I have to deprive them. So I keep snack packs of sugar free puddings, sugar free popsicles and fudgecicles, strawberries sliced up go well with the low cal pudding, and since it’s snack pack size, I can keep a limit on how much I have in front of me at a time. THEN I LOG IT IN A JOURNAL. This is very important for me. If I don’t, it’s too easy for me to “talk” myself into another helping. I “see” the calories totaled right there in a journal, I think twice about it.
I’ve written a book here, so I’m going to stop. I guess I just want you to get that FIRE back in you and that determination that I’ve seen. Don’t let a change of scenery change your goals or even let them slip. It might be a little tough, but you my friend, are tougher. Take it as a challenge, put some thought into how you will handle it, then put your plan to work, and then watch yourself SOAR. You’re WORTH IT.
And besides, I need someone to go shopping with me for new winter clothes when WE drop another size, K? I’ll come pick you up ……..
Huggggggggs,
Shan
Just found your blog. I need you back with us. We all miss you so much. The not smoking is a great feat. My husband quit 24 years ago and I thought I would lose my mind. I almost begged him to start again. But after 3 months he was back to his even keel again. He didn’t gain weight but boy was he a grouch. So proud of you. He said it was the hardest thing he had ever done. Love, Marge